I was 7 years old, at summer camp. I was among the camp's youngest children--the first time I was cut off from my parents, and I grieved. One day I encountered a girl of 13 or so who was slim and pretty. I liked her at once. She smiled on me very kindly, like an older sister can do (and I was missing mother then, as I've said already).

Then I got sick and was put into a ward there. Within a day or so after I got to the sick ward, my naiad [beautiful girl] was taken there as well! She had eaten something wrong. She came elegantly collapsed over her stomach. When I saw her, beautiful and defenseless, I felt an acute and totally new emotion.

Note the psychodynamics of meaning: you feel deserted - your eye catches a shapely thing - the thing serves you good - you see it then suffering - the shapely form exemplifies suffering - you want to serve good for the thing - you sympathize wholly, body and soul.

Kirill considers himself to be no more than an advanced user of SPSS who, whether he likes it or not, is tied to SPSS because of the time he has spent learning it—to the point that it has become like part of his body. He both likes it and dislikes it. He is a perfectionist and wants SPSS to improve—hence his long list of “Major flaws, shortcomings, errors and suggestions,” which led to his being invited to be a beta tester for version 14.